creating memories (words & music: laura rafetseder)

 rise

out on the big bad sea
i am a sailor asleep on the ground
and in a million years someone will wake me
to rise in a storm

and the thunders and the lightning that surround me
will frighten you so much that you will fall
and you fall and tumble blindly without direction
and all that u can do is ride the waves
and you will rise

i am the big bad wolf
and you are the ones that feed me
until i come alive
and when i appear i wear a sheepskin
so that you don´t discover
that its u that i want

and i carry u inside me once
i slaughtered to throw u back again
when it is time
and u open up my guts
to see me bleeding
but the eyes u look into 
are your own
and they will rise

Vienna at my feet

tonight my heart feels at home
as if this city were my own
this city that i look on
Vienna at my feet
ottakring lies still
reflecting how i feel
each light like a candle
this roof like a throne
Vienna at my feet 

Tonight the ferris wheel glows
out on the horizon
this city is the night sky
Vienna at my feet
to me the only comfort
she holds me like a child 
and puts me at ease
Vienna at my feet

tonight i watch the hours move
on this church clock in the distance
and time holds its breath
and lays this city down
puts it gently to sleep
Vienna at my feet  
i watch this feeling grow
it pins me down 
let this city conquer me
and let me be the conquered
Vienna at my feet 

tonight i feel like an old soul 
as if i´ve always been there
as if i were the rocks
on which this city was built 
that have seen it burned down
and rebuilt stone by stone
i am vienna at my feet

bye bye clouds

All that i had is now gone
all that i had is now gone
its gone for no reason
it may be the season
but all that i had is now gone

all that i knew are now gone
all that i knew are now gone
they ve gone for no reason
it may be the season
but all that i knew are now gone

can´t u see it´s now that matters to me
hope u will see
we´re free for today
once everything´s gone

so bye bye baby goodbye
you´ve gone for no reason i
t may be the season
bye bye baby goodbye


so we´re chasing the clouds away now
we´re chasing the clouds away now
they ll go for no reason
with every new season
we´re chasing the clouds away now

waterfalls at night

and so i fly across this sea tonight
and watch the world in the fading evening light
to move away from u
remove my heart from any damage that u do

cos u give me
waterfalls at night
water on my ceiling l
et me stay out of ur sight
let me stay out of ur system
let me flood my gates with light
let me move in my direction
let me stay out of ur reach
and fight the insurrection
u give me waterfalls at night

all the promises u made
u wont keep a single one
even if u really tried
to share my life with u 
is something i realize i might never do

so now the sea turned upside down again
ur gonna have to feel the urge
to go and get me while u can 
it breaks my heart to see
what all this is doing to u and me

someday

someday across the sea i´ll be a long way away from thee
someday across the sky i´m gonna keep u close to my heart
baby dry ur eyes i don´t want to see u cry  
and when i die i think of u where u are
i loved u true 

someday i close my eyes to fly a thousand
miles and miles to u someday across my heart
ther´ll be ur name, a mighty scar 
baby dry ur eyes i don´t want to see u cry  
and when i die i think of u where u are   
i loved u true 

someday when im gone
u´ll still echo on and on
someday i wish i could
but i cant i know i should
baby dry ur eyes i don´t want to see u cry 
and when i die i think
of u where u are  
i loved u true

the unknown

i got nowhere to go, got nowhere to hide
I lost it all in your arms tonight
the wind is calm as the fire burns
it´s the unknown for which i yearn  

i sold all the sins ive done shed a tear for what ive become
no use crying for what is gone
its the unknown for which ive come

the fire sheds its light on me
but its not enough for me to see
thieves might take all that ive got 
there's nothing left for them to rob


 theres not much left for which i´d stay
and though i don´t know where im going
what leads me there is the unknown

the wind is my companion

he wind is my companion
it falls asleep at night i
t carries my love to some distant land
where my own true love will stand

the yellow moon shines full and bright
but dark and empty am I
it shines for the broken hearted ones
who have no thoughts to deny

the twinkling of a star
shall guide my heart to u
time will tell when the road shall end
and i´m walking my miles in between

let my kiss catch ur sighs
lead my heart out of this darkness
let my breath remember the story
how our love came to fall

the bird that knows no sorrow
shall fly away like u
i´m waving goodbye
to the one who will never return
and who´ll never be mine



the cats' fading colors

at night things turn into a memory
when u stood in some dark street
next to some lonely streetlamp
looking up to girls on shiny window sills
the very moment that time stands still

and you wish you were in there
and then again you don´t
cos ur out there like a ghost
at ease with the world most of all
before u turn into the city at night
the eternal romantic

so when you fall asleep
my demons call it a day
knowing u are out there

some of u tired
leaving work for home
some still dancing in the night
to look after me while i am dreaming
with empty stations and life´s window sills
and the cats' fading colors

so when you fall asleep
my demons call it a day 
knowing u are  out there


out of touch

i ask myself why do i still see you
in the face of somebody new 
wish there was something i could do
to make them more like you

when the masks all fall
and the truth is all
that you see that it´s me
who is missing you all that much
we´re out of touch

if it is love that brings us down 
brings us down on the ground
i went down in your arms
knowing that this would bring
major harm to me

when the pain´s so strong its beyond all grief
it will force me down on my knees
cos im missing you all that much 
we´re out of touch

i hate this song

 i dreamed i was a little girl
i played by the fire
i lived by the edge of the sea
and fed my monsters

i know this song
i know this song

i dreamed i was an open book
with everyone to look in
and each line that i wish was hidden
is now open to the public eye

i hate this song
i hate this song

i dreamed i cut my right hand
and cut it off my arm
and put it back into its place
wondering at the feeling

i love this song
i love this song

and if i ever find the words
to express this feeling
its like im stuck inside of me

i dreamed i kissed an old woman´s face
and told her that she was dead
and took her in my broken arms
in one confusing feeling

i dreamed i carried cats inside
filling up my inside
it moved me deeply to feel them move
to touch me from within
singing i love this song
i love this song

vast gigantic sea

i wish that i could make a part of you
stay with me so that even when you´re far away
i have you near
to carry you inside of me
inside this vast gigantic sea
that swallows me
when you´re away
i wish that i could make you stay
how can i hold you when you´re  gone


​ 
this seed of love you planted deep inside
inside of me
i feel it grow, i feel it 
spring to life
it has to breathe
i open up and set it free
into this vast gigantic sea
that swallows me when you´re away
i wish that i could make it stay

how can i hold it when it´s gone

the girl that i once was is sad and scared
i hold her close
a sense of loss, a shadow
on her mind
she´s all i got
i lose myself inside of me
inside this vast gigantic sea
that swallows me when she´s away
i wish that i could make her stay

how can i hold her when she´s gone

these days a child is wandering
through my dreams, it has no name
invokes a yearning that i never knew
i sleep in flames
it burns and burns inside of me
until that vast gigantic sea
will swallow it and make me whole
i wish that i could  let it go

how can i hold it when it´s gone